What I wouldn’t give for a week or two that’s calm & sensible. Juggling a family (wife and two kids), school (last semester for my second bachelors, thank God), work, and myself is not an easy chore. I’m getting better at it, but there are still days that make me want to rip my hair out, get enraged, and join the postal service. In my case, I think the combination of going back to school and work can be lethal, especially when I’m doing a difficult undergraduate curriculum that usually only meets during the day. I’d like to continue on with a masters program soon after, but it’s going to take a little while for the mental fatigue to wear off. I’m pretty certain I’d hit a huge level of burnout if I didn’t keep reminding myself that this is the home stretch.
And while I do bitch about it a lot, this is going to be one achievement I’ll definitely be proud of and hold in high regard. The last time through, I slack-assed hard and had to pull favors in order to graduate. My record was terrible and it cost me for many years. This time I’m not only doing it the right way, but I’m working my ass off in class and being successful while balancing the aforementioned variables in sentence two. I’ve always been a fellow with low self-confidence and -esteem, but pulling this off successfully would (theoretically) show myself that I am capable of achieving more.
I am looking forward to the end, though, so I can go back to my normal work schedule and not have to worry about which project I need to work on after dinner. I won’t be as distracted playing with the kids and I can enjoy the time more. (It’s not that I don’t enjoy it now, but the outside stress is a definite drag-down.)
After the commencement, it’s taking a well deserved break from academia. After all, so much has happened to me in the last two years: we moved into our new house, we had our second child, our first child started preschool, I had a position change at work, and there have been serious medical problems in both sides of the family. I probably would have been a little more nuts than usual without 6-9 hours a semester. But eventually, I’ll hunker down and aim for the next level. If nothing else, I can target the executive programs that meet in the evenings – relieving my biggest stresses that come when I step away from my desk to go to school.
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Elsewhere…
- Summer vacation is booked. Sandals Royal Caribbean, here we come! Time to celebrate ten years of wedded bliss as well as my graduation. The dogs and the kids are boarded – last year it was family & Disney, this year is a getaway. We’ll be traveling with our best friends Al & Alissa, so we can also commemorate friendship and his graduation from LBS.
- I was seeing success from my fitness routines, which makes it all the more puzzling why I can’t stay focused. Even the carrot of Jamaica hasn’t kept me from falling off the wagon. I lost three pounds (and some measurable floppy fat) the first week from working out, then didn’t do anything and maintained. What they say is true – it’s much easier to stop than start.
- We get to face that terrible stage of parenthood where we have to decide when an activity a kid enjoys crosses over from mild entertainment to behavior enhancer. Yeah. I think we’ve done a good job trying to balance fantasy from reality, but the rubber is about to meet the road.
- Why is this easier to write than the one for my internship?



