Haven’t written one of these in awhile….
Honestly, I just haven’t been in a writing mood lately. Seems like there’s a lot going on around me and it’s becoming one big blur. That and the weather has turned dark & dreary this week. Cloudy gray skies, showers & drizzle, mid 50’s – this is the weather I hate. I love the winter when the day goes gray and the sky fills with snow clouds, but make it be rain and it royally sucks. As for this week; mid 50’s are fine, windy is fine, rain is not. My overall frame of mind is shot right now. I’m in need of a serious pick-me-up, and I’m not sure where to find it.
The job hasn’t been much fun of late either. We’ve been in our new group for almost two months now, and while Ive found my new teammates to be nice people there’s still a big sense of isolation. The new team doesn’t understand how our stuff works, and while the manager is putting his best effort in there’s still a gap.
It becomes doubly frustrating that my senior partner on the application has five dedicated years on it while I have less than one year split time around 20% (as my HR record reads) and two months dedicated time (much more accurate). SN is real helpful and is trying to give me the room to grow into the app & learn on my own while gently leading me down the trail, but it’s still torturous. I’m used to speaking intelligently and authoritatively on an application, so it’s hard to admit that I’m not an SME on this new app. Not being able to speak authoritatively really hammers my confidence (not that there’s much to break in the first place) and being able to bullshit my way through unfamiliar ground is not my strong point. I know it takes time to gain experience, but it’s making the interim days miserable. There’s also an ebb & flow to the work that comes in. A couple weeks ago everything was slow paced to the point of boredom. This week so many things have been flying at me that it’s become hard to see straight. These projects will help me grow my experience but there are going to be a lot of stubbed toes along the way.
All this talk is depressing, so let’s find better topics. Almost two months in and Garrett is still having a blast at school. He’s always excited to go and his teacher reports that things are going great. As a result of the emptier house Ethan keeps getting more and more chatty by the day. Kid-wise, scool couldn’t have started any better.
I’m becoming a total HD snob. Football games don’t look right on standard def anymore, and I’m much rather see programming in crystal clear wide screen than TBS/TNT Stretch-o-Vision. DirecTV launched a ton of channels, but not all the content has caught up. Still, a lot of the Discovery-style network shows look great in the new format. Cartoon Network, by contrast, looks terrible….probably giving TBS and TNT a run at the bottom of the barrel.
Election Day is still over a year away, but I’m burnt out on the coverage already. The old Me would be hanging on to every shred of type and loving the all out Internet coverage that didn’t exist back then. The current Me wishes it would all go away.
Five games to go, and WVU sits #7 in the BCS. Good placement at this point. With as crazy as the season is, anything can still happen. Ending at #3 (or potentially 4th if things break right) guarantees a BCS slot irregardless of the conference standings, and there’s still an outside shot at #2…hell #1. But we gotta win ‘em all out first.
Oh, what I wouldn’t give for a little less worry & stress…